Our Hearts Will Always Touch

After getting admitted for a low blood pressure on January 26th, 2012, a new scan showed that mom's cancer had spread even further.  The new chemo wasn't working.  Oncologist said, "There's nothing else we can do."  We all cried.  We didn't know how much longer she had, all we knew was this was the end of the road.

I can't believe that the center of my world was leaving.  Really? The woman who did anything and everything for my family and I isn't going to be with us anymore.  I was in shock.


I knew she had cancer, but I didn't think all of this was going to go down so soon.  I thought, "Aren't people supposed to have cancer for a couple years before they go on hospice?", and "Why? WHY? WHY?"  

Mom joined Jesus on Feb. 5th, 2012 after only a week on hospice.  She is now our angel in heaven, building a beautiful tea garden and with other loved ones she has missed all these years.

Mom said and did some pretty incredible things during her last week and half of her life, too much to write right now, but I promise, I will eventually write it for you all to see.


She was the love and joy of our lives and always will be.  We miss you so much already mom, but I know you are okay and I can't wait till we are all together once again.  You don't have cancer anymore.  You are free.  I love you with all of my heart.  Thank you for being my mommy.

Found this beautiful poem and wanted to share it with you all:

Our Hearts Will Always Touch

© Ranja Kujala

When I laid there beside you,

Could you feel me there?

My arms were wrapped around you,

And I was stroking your hair.

I was talking about all the good times,

For me they were every single day.

I wanted you to feel love and comfort,

And happy in some way.

I watched your every breath,

And prayed that each one wasn't your last.

The time we got to share together,

Went by too quick...Too fast.

I wanted you to wake up,

Please Mum...Open your eyes.

Tell me this is a nightmare,

And not our goodbyes.

As your last breath grew closer,

We lay there peacefully together.

My heart continually breaking,

Because I wanted you forever.

Then there it was,

Your final breath of air.

I didn't want to believe it,

This is so cruel and not fair.

I held your beautiful face,

And prayed you'd breath again.

I wasn't ready for you to go,

I couldn't admit that this was the end.

But then I realized that you were now in peace,

And not suffering anymore.

You were beginning the life of an Angel,

And your body would no longer be sore.

I held you close and squeezed you tight,

And tried to say goodbye.

I've lost my Mum and my number one best friend,

All my heart could do is cry.

I slowly got up,

I wanted so much to stay.

I leaned over and gave you one more kiss,

It was so hard to walk away.

Mum you are my entire world,

And I miss you so very much.

I wish I could feel your loveable cuddle,

And your soft and gentle touch.

But for now I have to wait,

Until we meet again.

You will always be in my heart and thoughts,

My dear Mum and best friend.

Always and Forever,

Our hearts will always touch.

Always and Forever,

Your baby girl loves you so much.

Source: Our Hearts Will Always Touch, Cancer Poem http://www.familyfriendpoems.com/poem/our-hearts-will-always-touch#ixzz1jrYNwnVx 
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